affirm one's faith in or allegiance to (a religion or set of beliefs)
a self love broadcast
written and performed by
Christopher Schrock
a.k.a, ChristourfertheCURATE
09.02.2020, 0020 hours
[ starts with me looking the mirror. all the talking parts are me in the mirror thinking and contemplating who I am, where I come from... etc. ]
keep loving on you christourfer, keep loving.
PRODUCED BY EZMUSIC, SHaUNP
It's almost like I lost my voice, like I don't know who I am, really anymore, like I just look in front of the mirror and try to figure out, try to look inside myself, try to figure out now, try to learn from me and who I am, try to record myself, play, play that man. I, don't know who I am, ARGGGHHHH, I don't know who I am. Said I'm lost, so lonely, can not find me, if I am, then, can you see me. I am just a jack-in-the-box, roll me down, and pop me back up. Play with me, like, balls, and jacks. I kid you, kids, I know who I am, I know who I am. CURATE. ****
spoken word: growing up I really didn't have, love. and maybe I did, but, the younger me didn't want to see it. hear it, understand it, I wanted love the way that i thought love should be given. and that was based on like, disney movies, happily ever afters, snow whites, and cinderellas.
I'd rather be by myself so lonely, I'd rather not have a dude like you, see, you want to tell me all the things you love about me but you don't know ya self, you don't know who you are, so how can, you, love me I don't understand, who you are, so how can you get me. You're in my mind, I'm on rewind, tryna get back to the first day we met, where you said that you had goals and everything and that was it and now you're here, right here, in front of me, and I don't who you are you can sit right there, in the corner, and I guess I will do your job, I'll be the man.
PRODUCED BY EZMUSIC, BEATSBYUNI
spoken word: i got tired of being beat on, I got tired of being used and mistreated, I got tired of, people calling my fuking name. I got tired of it, i got tired of being depended on, I got tired of answering questions, and nobody being able to answer mine. I was over being whoever the fuck everybody thought, they, thought I was, and that is such a fucked up sentence but I don't even really care. I don't. I really really don't give a damn.
And, that scares me.
I don't care, what you think, of me at all, don't you know, I'm a man of my own words, I don't listen to Gods, no no no, I'm a King sitting in my own fortress, the peasants perform for me, don't you know that I don't care about your needs, please, peasant, you peasant, you peasant,you peasant,you peasant,you peasant, not your pleasantries, peasant, you peasant, you peasant, you peasant,you peasant, I'll have your pleasure please
Damn, this water good shit. Have you ever been walkin’ round, with the water, in your mouth is dry, and you really want a sip of the water, but you ani’t got nothing nothing, on ya. And you really want a sip of the water, but you anit got nothing on ya, you want a sip of the water, you anit got spirit on ya.
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Walk outside playing tik tak toe, four square on the ground, playing hop scotch yo. not tryna step on a crack, might break mama’s back, we don’t know what we doing, but we know where we at, we grown at 13, playing balls and jack on the cement. That’s what we did, yo, when we were kids.