==== 🌬️ STAYING A LEAF ON THE WIND IS HARD 🍃 ====

THEY say that in accidents with drunk divers, the drunks survive more often, with less injury because they didn’t know to tense up. Ergo, when you are about to be under immense stress, there are times when it can be beneficial to “go limp”.

I have a host of chronic pain and neurological issue from a car-wreck I was in (2009), and have had to adapt my life around ALL that. When I’m in the car with others, there are times I will rag-doll on purpose, it’s far gentler on the sinew in the long-run.

Now it’s 2026, and [my loving partner and I] are in a hard chapter of our lives; and because of my Neurology, I have let my Self stay mired in “Hippy Time”. Make no Commitments, have no Obligations: while generally helpful (and for all but a select FEW); don’t let others think you’re someone they can “rely” on. Have boundaries, stay scarce, let them wonder what you’re up to. No Bosses, No Bedtime (really).

“If you want different, you have to act different” For some years I feel I have stagnated: shrinking my Self so I could then-handle the deficiencies of Other without much upset. Shrinking my Ambition so I could help the thoughtless that had little of their own. I want more, I want different, and I KNOW I can build a maypole to gather those weirdos who will actually Appreciate my mad-mind into my Twilight.

I am a Hermit and a Hedonist, and every night is a Party.

I have my Nights down, it’s my Days I have yet to Master.

Everything in and out of me demands I set a Routine, and I want nothing less.

But the dead are piling up, and the world is getting scarier. Old agreements are being broken, and the new way is not nutritious.

If you had told me in 2011 when I started on this entrepreneur’s Journey, that I’d need to become more of a Shaman, an Anthroapologist that takes a long-view of Humans and how-they do; all for the sake of better communication, storytelling, and appreciation; I’d have thought it a fun Story, but not one I could make any sense of (Career be like that).