Staring at my ceiling

Thoughts crawling inside my head,

Sleepless nights are sometimes my favorite, coz

Everytime I try to forget something they end up giving me flashbacks

Everything that hasn't happened yet scares me

Everything that has happened haunt me

Every trauma I've makes my night breathless

Everytime I think of something that scares the shit out of me

The ache I feel in my heart is speechless

Everytime the thought of death comes in my mind

I'm always ready to accept it

Strange right? Coz the lil girl in me was so scared of even a small mark

And here I'm, scratching my whole body

I've a mark for my every trauma

And I still try to love them

Everytime my heart gets broken the scars come in

Everytime when someone leaves me I start to hate myself

I hate every part of my body, coz I always feel that I'm only pretty to be lusted and never to be loved.