WAS MY HOPE ABSURD?-
Lately,
I want to be reckless,
My whole life
I kept advising my mind,
Do not fancy that,
You aren't supposed to.
However,
The storm in my heart,
I don't think it will calm.
The fire that has been
Not even lit before
Is already burning the
Only home in my heart.
Recklessly,
Shamelessly,
Nonchalantly,
I'm burning down
My whole world,
In hoping to
Be with you.
Was my hope absurd?
Or is it you who's absurd?
How could I still want to be
In there,
In a goddamn fire?
How could I not see
Where is it going?
How could I let you
Overpower me!!
My mind..
My soul..
My heart?
The audacity,
That I do not dare to
Tame my love for you!
For you being my absolute
Favourite destruction.
TOO-SWEET-
Sipping my too-sweet cappuccino.
Too busy,
Looking at the lifeless trees.
as I add three packets
Of sweetener.
Fully aware of
Double chocolate muffin
I only wanted coffee.
I didn't plan to buy it
But strangely,
Something about the cafe
At the library,
Forces me,
Fascinates me,
As I can’t help,
But wander around the counter
To spot something
Sweet,
Also not too sweet,
To eat while I read books.
Everything smells like
books here,
More books,
Hardcover books,
Vintage books
And a familiar warmth.
I come here every day,
Every spring,
Every summer,
Every autumn
Every winter.
Just when I was
Complaining to myself
To stop daydream
All the time.
Something caught my eye
From afar,
on my left side.
I saw grey.
Someone with brown hairs
wearing a grey hoodie.
The distance that I calculated
In my mind,
27 steps.
He is just
27 steps away from me.
Perhaps, it is the classical tune
Of peaceful piano,
That I am listening
Or
The big green shelves
Named blocks 38 and 39
That holds
Books
Or is it the
Too-sweet coffee,
That makes me
Want to keep
Doing all this
While my eyes
Keep wandering
To my left side.
Grey hoodie guy
Is busy,
reading his favorite book
maybe.
Carefully observing
Things around me,
I do not want someone
To look at me
Looking at someone
So dearly and with focus.
I am not a creep,
I am an artist.
And he,