02/24/2024
I felt a lovely mutual connection when we broke into laughters together
creating dejavu in the quaint alleys
or speaking weird languages in the foreign streets
But I also felt it when we stood in silence
feeling the wind in our hair, the open air before us
and on the hill of sleeping old ruins
quietly we grew familiar with the new people, with the new us.
When something beautiful appears in front of me
it is very painful if I try to make it mine
or to get it to look at me
Beauty belongs to no one but itself.
The best way to appreciate it
is just to let it be however it wants
and find enough happiness just from looking at it.
Some moments I felt utterly lonely
Some moments I felt cared for and connected
Some moments too many feelings were bottled up inside to bear
Some moments inside was just an empty hollow.
I guess those are some of what I was feeling inside
on a day near the end of my twentieth year of age
How about you?
When you listened to us talking
what were you thinking?
When you silented gazed out at that sky
what were you feeling?
With love for the day, for the scenescapes, for the people, for myself,
Autumn