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Hi Trang,

This is my hallucination story. I want to share what I’ve been looking for and what I saw with you, because I want to find company on this adventure. My actual goal is to discover the irrational and genuine me, that’s why I think the trip is longer than the literal trips. It’s probably as long as my life, though I haven’t traced the root. Long implies messy, so I am writing to untangle the mess and communicate it as clearly as I can.

Right now it’s July, I want to chat with you about your eating mushroom last week. I actually wrote a bunch about my April mushroom experience back in May, so I’m going to revise some to tell you.

(Maybe it’d be helpful to contextualize my trip-themed timeline: I probably had my first sight in 2004, started drawing plants and buddhist statues in 2010, made an animation about visual hallucination with a team in February-September 2017, started subconscious journaling in preparation for writing novel during summer 2019, read about psychedelic plants in June 2020, asked my stepmom to tell my fortunes in August, ate truffles in October, bought mushrooms in February 2021, ate mushrooms in April, and started writing in May.)

First, I want to ask you some questions hehe.

• did you meet any people you know, any people you don’t know?
• why did you take shrooms? was your trip “good”? what is good? was it what you expected?
• did you hug anyone, human or not? did you have a notebook with you?
• did you think about gifs, being an actor, being a prophet?
• what languages did you think in?
• Is mushroom eating back home a thing? (I think it’s very common in Yunnan and very different from the modern western tradition (for lack of better words). I feel ok telling my godmother about eating shrooms). did you tell anyone from family or friends back home about your shrooms trip or what you took away from it?
• did you think about the cosmic serpent?

Here are the questions that got us started:

• Did you meet any dogs btw?
• What do you think or feel or remember or ask when you think about lotus?

Then, I think a pretty clear structure for sharing trip experiences is “why you took it? what did you see? what did you take away?” so I will borrow that:

What I was looking for, why I took mushrooms:

• I was looking for a good thoughts trip.