Hey! In case you missed last time, you’re receiving this because you’re a supporting force in my life; someone I’d like to stay in orbit with. Below, I share a bit about what life’s like these days.
Writing this is only 5% of the fun — I hope much more joy comes from the follow up walks and conversations I’ll share with some of you.
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The lens I’ll take today is on emptiness and fullness. Making sense of opposing forces and allowing my intuition to guide me through contradictions with nuance — in all the grey areas and uncertainty — is emerging as core to how I navigate this crazy little life.
Here are some Notes from the Void.
Life’s brought me to an interesting threshold to start the year. I’m finding myself holding two seemingly contradictory states: a deep-rooted groundedness in who I am, alongside blooming spaces of uncertainty.
In many ways, I’ve never felt more comfortable in my own skin; I’ve built up a hard-earned faith in my ability to navigate life’s currents. At the same time, I'm learning to hold space for life's open questions and unfinished corners — the kind that need time, not solutions, to reveal their shape.
I’ve had my eyes opened to some ways I don’t always show up as I’d like for those around me. Continuing the thread of “quality thought” from last time, I'm building clarity on more specific shifts I want to make.
I notice my reactivity often stems from ego and anxiety — an agile mind, while often a blessing, can be a curse when it races ahead of the heart. That same agility can sometimes leave me wrapped up in the visions I create, losing sight of the experiences of those right in front of me.
Left unchecked, these patterns fuel miscalibration against reality, clouding my judgement and creating unintended distance from others.
In the face of the uncertainty these patterns cast on the personal and relational aspects of what’s next, I'm trying something new. My usual move is to problem-solve my way through everything, but I'm learning to let things come to me. When emptiness emerges, I don't need to be the one to actively fill it.
I'm starting small — embracing the little moments, feeling feelings fully, and catching myself when old patterns emerge. Beyond that, I'm practicing sitting with the space itself. Making peace with emptiness, rather than rushing to fill it, hopefully will allow for something more durable to take shape over time.
The start of this year has brought unexpected warmth through my support system. In contrast with feeling isolated in New York a year ago, the depth of connection and ‘I-got-your-back’-edness I’m experiencing now is a big shift. I’m immensely grateful for the people that show up, each in their own way. It’s been striking how these relationships have quietly deepened, revealing their strength exactly when I needed them.