I balance my time with work, rest, and play - that is today's mantra, suggested by Youtube yoga instructor, Kasandra. At this point, I feel like I should confess first. I skipped writing 750 words along with practicing yoga yesterday. The good news is that I am back here and ready to start again. it is still much later than I initially want, but who cares. I am awake and still typing. One thing for sure is that I would need a minimum of 4 to 6 hours for sleep. To wake up early in the morning, I should finish writing as early as by midnight.

Speaking of which, let's jot down what my ideal writing routine would be like. I like the daily writing routine of Stephen King and Murakami Haruki. They wake up early, write for several hours, get out either for a stroll or a running, and then write some more or edit what he wrote before. Comparing their routine and my routine, I can see three noticeable differences. First, they start their morning with the most critical task, writing. Second, they have a solid time slot for editing. Third, their routines are much simpler than mine.

This clearly shows what I should do differently: 1) I also need to start my day with writing - what I am wondering is whether I should start my day with writing 750 words in English or writing my blog post in Korean. Why am I wondering? Why am I not able to decide on this? It's because I am still unclear in setting the priority. Let's get back to this after going through each of all three items. 2) I need an editing process. I hate editing, which makes sense why I try to minimize editing in the past and now. The question for me is how much I desire to write better. Everyone great author says that editing is a critical process to make any writing piece good, better, and great. There is no argument or confusion at all. I do want to write better, but how desperately I want to write better and I want to be a writer; that is a question. Whether I am financially secure or not, I want to be a writer. I want to write my thought. I want to tell my story. The more I am thinking about writing, the more I realize how much I want to tell my story. And as much as I want to write, I want to write well. As an avid reader, I hate reading a writing piece that is poorly written. Even if the contents are great and the insights are brilliant in the book, I hate reading it if it is poorly written. From that perspective, I agree with what the author, Simin You, said about language. He said that language is a house of thoughts, ideas. I hadn't thought about the relation between an idea and language until I came to the US and had to communicate in English at school and work. Even if you think you have an idea in your head, if you cannot able to construct your ideas, thoughts, emotions in language, there are no solid thoughts left whether it is for yourself or to communicate with others. I felt monotonous and deflated at first when I was unable to convey my thought in English. Then I found myself simplifying my thoughts to fit them with the fluency level of my language. I felt like I become a simpler person when I speak in English. The more vocabulary and expressions I learn, the more clear thoughts I can come up with, and this is only for myself. So, the conclusion is simple. I want to write better. I want to speak better. I want to communicate with clarity and ease whatever the channel would be. It can be through writing, speaking, or drawing; no matter how I communicate, I want to communicate better. With that, there is no excuse allowed for the editing process. I should start editing actively, or better proactively. 3) I have too many items on my to-do list. I need to do exercise, like doing yoga and running. I need to write and edit, of course, I need to read more. In addition to that, I want to learn how to use some drawing apps like Procreator and how to code, like learning python and using R. I am also studying English and Spanish. When it comes to English, I want to level up my fluency level.

So here is the ultimate question - what I should do? Should I fully focus on writing and reading or should I keep distributing my time and energy fairly to writing, reading, and learning foreign languages and digital drawing and programming? Here is the question. Given a reminiscence of the past months, I became more reluctant than ever to initiate another project at this point.