I am at peace with the flow of life - this is today's mantra, which came from today's youtube yoga session. It sounds easy and difficult at the same time when you say 'making peace with something.' It sounds easy because you are the one who makes peace with something, not relying upon others. Controlling myself is hard enough; influencing others is another level for me. At the same time, it sounds ambiguous and even difficult to make peace with something because I do not know what this 'something' is. There are certain things that are not that people would not easily make peace with in general. The loss of loved ones would not be easy; it cannot be easy. Nobody would be able to make peace if you are about to lose what you care about; your wealth and power, your health, and your freedom -- here are just a few of so many things that you would look after and fiercely protect.

Reading and watching the current situation of Ukraine, I cannot help but build endless scenarios in my head. Humans are selfish beings, and I am no exception. I feel deeply sympathetic to all Ukrainians, those who were forced to flee from their homeland and those who made a touch choice of risking their lives to protect their loved ones. I even feel sorry for those young Russian soldiers who might have no ideas why they had to come and attack people in a foreign land. I feel bad for the families of those soldiers in Russia and people who have been protesting against the war. I saw a shoutout of Russians, regardless of their social status, who stood up and claimed no war. It might appear easy to post your thoughts on SNS, but it is not and will never be easy to do so if you live in a country, in which the government has centralized censorship over media, police, and the justice system. I was lucky enough not to live in such a situation but saw horrifying stories of my previous generations who had suffered and endured such a harsh situation in the past.

At the same time, I cannot help but think about the scenarios of what if those things happen to me, to my friends and family, and to my homeland.