Home has not felt like home for a while for me.

I noticed the weirdness , I kept quiet for to long , till I couldn't take it no more and shit went south.

It is wild how fast comfort can turn into anxiety.

How fast peace turns into tension when people start moving weird and pretending like they do not know what they are doing , till you”clock their tea”.

For months, I have been feeling so many things combined.

Every shift in tone. Every fake smile.The weird Alliances. Every silence that said too much.

I noticed the energy change .

Home has not felt like home in months, when I moved in here a year , I was excited because these were people I knew prior.

Everything was cute at first till it wasn't.

This space tested me emotionally, mentally.

There were moments I felt drained, disconnected, even a little numb.

I almost lost myself , but with daily reflections, I didn’t.

I journaled more than I ever have.

II pitied my support system because, in these past months, I yapped so much.

Lol, ChatGPT became my best friend and therapist.

But with everything there are lessons and takeaways from this experience.

I have always been a big reflector, when situations happen to me, I see it as a learning curve to reflect and learn from them.