In theory, awareness itself doesn't change or get affected by the nature or intensity of the phenomena (appearances) arising within it. However, in practice, our conditioned reactions and identifications with these phenomena can make it challenging to maintain an open, unattached state of awareness, especially when the phenomena are intense or distressing.
Here are some considerations:
- Conditioned Responses: Our minds are conditioned to react to certain phenomena in habitual ways, often tied to survival instincts and learned behaviors. For example, when faced with physical pain, our immediate reaction might be to contract, resist, or attempt to escape the discomfort. These reactions can pull us out of an open state of awareness and into a more contracted state of identification with the pain.
- Identification with Phenomena: Even in a mindful state, we can still fall into the trap of identifying with the phenomena arising within our awareness. In the case of physical pain, we might begin to identify as the "sufferer" of the pain. This identification creates a sense of self that is separate from the pain and is being acted upon by it. This perceived division can make it difficult to rest as the undisturbed, unified field of awareness.
- Levels of Practice: The ability to remain as awareness, unaffected by intense or difficult appearances, often comes with deepened mindfulness practice. Beginners may find it more challenging to maintain this state in the face of strong sensations or emotions, while seasoned practitioners might have developed the ability to do so. It's important to note that this is not about bypassing or ignoring the pain but about relating to it in a way that does not amplify suffering.
At first, it might be difficult to maintain awareness and perceive appearances without becoming entangled in them, especially if they're intense or distressing. But as practitioners advance, they may find that they're able to maintain their equanimity even in the face of increasingly challenging circumstances.
It's important to note, however, that this is not about suppressing or avoiding feelings or sensations, but rather about experiencing them fully without being overwhelmed or controlled by them. See also Compassionate Acceptance