Tuesday, May 26th, 2021. 13:15 IST

Ever had sky-level expectations with a course, company, person, or place? Only to have it all shattered towards the end. Not because people failed you, but because you put a lot of your precious things at stake for it. And now there's no going back.

Everyone else seems to disregard this issue as "you're overthinking." Hence for some time, you pretend like everything is fine. You keep yourself in a bubble of denial. But everything you thought should seem like fun, now feels like a drag.

Drum rolls.

It happened to me. It felt like everything fell apart. For most of the days, I forgot to have fun and was searching for ways to quit.

Was it just me? Was I overthinking?

Should I have taken it on a lighter note?

Or should I have quit?

Honestly, quitting was not an option. That's how being in denial works. You want to, but you can't. A mix of self-doubt and losing an opportunity that big without making the most out of it holds you from quitting.

I sort to a mid-way choice.

1. Stop being in denial. Accept it. I made a poor choice.
2. If I am not quitting, I will have to compensate by learning more. I cannot keep ranting.

I don't know if I made the right choice. I don't know if this was even a problem. All I knew was I wasn't happy. And I was responsible for it.

Owning the responsibility freed me. Freedom from my bubble of being.. in denial.