Why did I find myself going from the life of the party to someone seeking purpose in work?

I’m the type of person who attempts juice every positive emotion from any given moment. Never in short supply of joy, however, how I obtained this emotion has evolved overtime.

This started with chasing youthful passions, became the highs of partying, before striving for purposeful work.

From the rush of playing, to the elation of dancing, to carving my own way.

But why the change?

The law of polarity.

The law of polarity is the principle that everything has two “poles”: good and evil, love and hate, attraction and disconnection. By extrapolating this we find that you can't feel the high of one emotion, without the depths of another.

No hope without fear, envy without desire, ecstasy without grief.

Consequently, we don't have a choice in the emotions we feel, we only choose how we arrive at them. I see transitions through life as a reflection of these choices changing.

My first transition came from attempting to regain control of that choice of where I found joy. The second was a choice in how I found it.