Episode 44: Healing Perfectionism: Moral Scrutiny, Anxiety, Gratitude, & Resentment
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In today's reflection episode, I discuss my struggle with perfectionism and read some of my journal entries.
🌙 In this episode, I share:
I sat down to make this episode after worrying that my podcast was becoming “robotic” due to my fear of not being perfect. I noticed that I had been slowly getting into the habit of making episodes that felt less and less like I was a peer and more like I was a teacher. Which is great, sometimes. But, the point of making this episode was to help me better understand that BALANCE IS KEY and I can have the best of both worlds. I can have insight AND reflection episodes. My podcast thrives off of having both.
This struggle was probably more obvious to me than to my listeners because I was also consistently planning episode ideas that fell into this “teaching you” category. Even if it wasn’t as obvious (although, I think it probably was), I felt like I was starting to put myself into a box. I want my podcast to be a place where I can help people out of dark or difficult times, but I also want it to be a place where I can safely be a normal 23-year-old. Although I put this episode out this week, this is something that has been on my mind for a couple of weeks, but I needed some more time to process first.
All of these thoughts and reflecting moments I had on my own triggered my desire to have a “rebrand” for my podcast because I realized that what I was currently doing was really boring and didn’t feel like me. My episodes were great, but my socials and “podcast aesthetic” were the problems! So, I started watching YouTube videos on finding your brand and used Chat GPT to help me organize all of my thoughts. I reflected and wrote stuff until I realized what this rebrand should look and feel like.
This episode was the first episode in this rebrand. I have gotten to a place of knowing myself emotionally, but I now finally also know myself aesthetically.
I didn’t discuss the rebrand in this episode because I recorded it before I knew that I was going to change the cover this week. I assumed I would wait another couple of weeks, but everything ended up falling into place and I felt this was the perfect time to go ahead with my rebrand. Because for me, when I keep things silent, they usually never happen. Going ahead and beginning the journey and having a new cover art now, is what really made all of this real and jump started everything. Rather than just planning, I am getting things done! I will discuss the new cover art and rebrand in next week’s episode!
Think about something in your life that would bring you more peace if you gave it up.